Monday, June 1, 2009

When Your Stomach Drops

Hi everyone. We are getting along here in Columbia okay. I am still sad and disappointed, but trying my best to move on. Trying not to focus on the hurt, and trying not to be mad at God. Not saying that it's working, but I'm trying.

It's funny how when good things are said, you sometimes wonder what is wrong. Chris is in Nixa, MO til Wednesday. He left yesterday evening and it is a long 4 days here without him. McAlisters is rolling out their new menu items this week there. Normally this is not a big deal, except that there are some big changes. They installed a dishwasher, as McAlisters is going to plates and silverware rather than the disposable stuff. Also they are starting a "choose 2" menu option as well as introducing the panini. So it's a big deal and he needed to be there for training and roll out.

All that said, he's out and about tonight with some of our friends from Nixa. He text messaged me. And the bottom just dropped out of my stomach. It was a very sweet text message, but the kinda text message you don't necessarily expect unless....something is wrong. Terribly wrong.
This is what it said:
"We have a great life together and don't worry about any other stuff. I love you."

It was followed by another text message that was also sweet and encouraging about our recent journey. I, of course, immediately called him. I was worried he'd been in an accident and was really hurt or something. He answered and was perfectly safe, eating dinner with our friend Tim. Why is it that our brain automatically goes to the bad side when someone encourages you out of the blue? Strange. It's not like Chris isn't encouraging to me regularly. This is not out of character for him. But because I didn't know exactly where he was and could not lay eyes on him, I totally freaked out. It's a good reminder though, that we sometimes take for granted the best things in our life. If nothing else right now, I am thankful God has given him (Chris) to me. I'm blessed with a wonderful husband going on 5 years now. That is a lot more than some find in a lifetime. There is a lot to be thankful for!

2 comments:

Em said...

You two are such a match and God knew your journey and that you two would need each other. Colin and I grew together through the infertility process. Amy, I am praying for you, I wish I could hug ya....just know I am here!
Em

The Jesters said...

I totally know what you mean! Sometimes I go through phases when I'm terrified that something terrible will happen to someone I love, so I get jumpy for no good reason. I'm so thankful for the encouraging and loving relationship you and Chris have!